Everyone has secret pleasures they enjoy when no one is looking. I have many... and tonight I indulged in one of my favorites on the way home from work.
As I was driving back to Tigerville in the dark, I let down my hair and opened my sunroof with all the windows, allowing the winter air to whip my hair around my face in a frozen frenzy. The stars above me shined alongside the moon in a magical way as I popped in a favorite cd and let loose with wild abandon.
In that moment ... as goosebumps covered my body, with my hair a tangled mess and my vocal cords pushed to the limit ... I reveled in the stinging sensation of being fully alive. I could feel all of it: The shivers racking my body; The excitement of driving fast; The music pounding in my ears; The breathtaking creation of God surrounding me in the mountains.
I can feel. I can sing. I can breathe. I am fully alive. And I am filled with Joy.
I've encountered a lot of pain in my 21 years. I've lost the ones I love, my perfect world was shattered, and my faith has been tested. Time and time again I've been kicked while I'm down. By this world's standards I should be an unstable wreck, unable to live another day. And yet I've remained strong. Why? Because I have an inner peace that surpasses all understanding. And because I have joy. Happiness comes and goes, but joy flows through my veins ... giving life to my soul.
Awesome! :)
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